Well Let's Start from the Beginning...

Well, here I am 25 years old, about to be married with a daughter of 4 months. If you asked me a year ago if this would be my life today I would not of believed you. I am not saying that i regret anything in my life, in fact I am completely happy to have my wonderful baby girl here especially after the miscarriage I had before her. I am not saying its the easiest job in the world. Late night, early mornings, poopy diapers, throwing up, exhaustion, crying, having someone relying on you for the rest of their life pretty much. Its a very demanding job thats for sure. but this isn't the beginning, let me start from the beginning.

I always knew I wanted to be a mom. i wanted to find the right guy settle down and be a mom of 3. i never could find the right guy. dating all through high school and college, i just found people who used me or broke my heart. i never thought i would find the man of my dreams from high school, outside of high school. Jesse was in the same graduating class as my older sister Alissa, in fact they were best friends. it wasn't until 5 years later that we actually got close but the only thing holding us back was him being in california and me in ohio, distance much? we knew it wouldn't work.

finally in december of 2009, he came to ohio for a whole month and stupid me was dating completely the wrong guy i didn't even see him while he was in town! once i realized this guy was wrong for me, me and jesse were back talking in full verse, and he informed me that he would be back for a week in feb 2010. i was so excited and made sure i would see him while he was here! and we did see each other pretty much everyday that week. we realized that has we were talking over the past year we really did fall in love with each other, but one thing still was in our way, distance. he had moved to texas bc he was out of the marines now. so in march when i went there to visit we knew i had to move there. so i applied for jobs and had a few interviews while i was there. when i got back i knew what i had to do and tell my dad my plans, i wanted to move to texas.

i was scared to tell him cause our family was here in ohio, but surprisingly he told me not to hold back or have regrets and to do it. so it happened jesse came in april to help me back and move to our new home, texas.

i ended up getting pregnant in june and miscarried in july. that was one of the hardest things that has happened to me. we were so excited and then i lost it all, all i could think about is "what was wrong with me?" but i was reminded that most miscarriages there is problems with the fetus. so better to lose it early rather then later or even after birth. but this story has a happy ending i got pregnant again in august and our baby girl was born in april :)

me and jesse are planning on getting married and starting our wonderful family story. i couldn't be happier with my baby girl and my husband to be! were not perfect, you will see that through this blog but at the same time, who is?