am i insane?

i think i am losing my mind. i spend most of my days locked up in my house, and now that i dont have a car again i seriously feel trapped. its raining on top of this so we cant even go out and explore. i dont know how i can entertain addison without just giving her toys and making funny noises. i feel as if i am not stimulating her enough plus the time frame seems to be going so slow. i know i shouldnt take these moments for granted but i would much rather be walking around with her outside or doing something outside rather than watching the rain come down. even if i tried to do something outside i am scared its going to randomly start raining at any point. and without a car we cant even go to the store to atleast window shop.

we are trapped. by the rain and lack of automobile.

i tried googling ideas for me and addison to do so she could have something fun to do and at her age frame, i get peek a boo. yeah yeah but c'mon i feel as if we can do something else i am just not creative enough to figure it out.

i cant wait to move out of this townhome and into a rental home or our own house. i want quiet or atleast some point of it. i want addison to have a backyard and for bentley to roam as he wishes. i cant stand hearing the traffic on the road and the constant random noises around here.

i think i am going insane.